Well I woke up at the lovely time of 5am and woke up to a living room full of feathers, my lovely cats decided to bring me a present. So I had to get to the hoover out straight away and hoover up as there were feathers all over the floor. I am having my morning fresh coffee and thinking about what I am going to get up to today. I took one of my cats to my friends grooming parlour last week as she is long-haired and it helps to get her groomed and looking nice. I am considering taking the other one there today as he has never been although he is different to her. The other cat is short-haired although a groom would do him good as she gets out all the dead hairs. Plus he gets a bath but the problem is he is very timid and he might not even come back in time. The other cat is good with other people but my male cat is quite the opposite, he runs when strangers come in. I guess I am going to still do some deciding but if I am going to go then I need to take him early so any other animals don’t frighten him.
I have so much to tell you and in May I did so many posts but I have been so busy that I haven’t had so many chances to sit down and write to you all. The one I care for court case is finally over and guess what, he WON! Thanks to put input, the solicitor and barrister, the court decided in his favour which was a weight off my shoulders. It was not an easy case to win as in his borough there is a huge housing shortage and the odds were pretty much against him. The case was very long and the first day we were there from 9am to 6pm and it was soooo tiring. The good thing was had a lady judge who was compassionate and the other sides barrister was a bit of a witch and she could see and even stood up for the pair of us in fact on a number of occasions. The barrister brought him to tears at one point, tried to question my ability due to mental health issues and then manipulated him into saying something that was not even the truth. The good thing was the judge saw it and she also believed all of my evidence which was fact to the point where me telling the truth could have jeopodised him somewhat. But that is what I am all about, I tell the truth and that’s how I wanted to be on the day was truthful but guess she respected me for it. I had to tell the court that he had been staying with me for most of the last twelve months or longer and this was because the council had forced us to get rid of a lot of his stuff. Like I said it could have jeoppodused him as the case was about his property but luckily instead of me making up a story I told the truth. At the end when the judge did her submissions, she pointed out that everything I said had helped her make up a picture of what had happened. I am glad it is finally over now as I had been carrying the whole thing on my shoulders and was really tough if I’m honest. The one I care for has calmed down a bit now and has not been drinking as much, the fact he thought he was going to have to leave was impacting him differently. I have also let him stay at his place and been having time to myself which has really been a help for me also. I feel more free at the moment and that I can do the things that I need to do without having him here and just getting on with what I need to to. I have been going over to him on most days, taking his meds and buying him some of the bits that he needs. I am also speaking to him on the phone a couple of times a day also but the peace is very nice.
I have been having some trouble with my meds for some time, I hadn’t been taking a lot but through going through a rough patch for a while I started again. I was only taking a low dose of an anti-depressant and tried to see if it would help again, I tried for about 5 weeks and they did liven me up but they still weren’t right for me. So low and behold I came off of them and am going down the natural route now. I was also trying to come off my sleeping pills, I had been on them for the best part of 2 years and for about 6 months, I was only taking a small amount most nights but just couldn’t seem to get off them completely. Low and behold with a lot of persistance, I have now manage to stop them for a good few weeks now. I feel so much better, I am only taking vitamins now and the odd painkiller for when I get any pain or headaches which I do on occasion. I have been taking a mineral solution that a friend recommended to me and that seems to have helped me quite a lot also. I have more energy now, my head feels a lot more clear and I am just feeling generally better in myself which is something to smile about. I have been getting a lot done and I have been enjoying life more than I have done for while so things more of an improvement for me at the moment. I may have a couple of options for getting myself back into work also, I have wooed a couple of people and will wait to see the outcome. I was going to try and set up a social enterprise but I have now decided against it as I am fully aware of my triggers. Stress being one of them and setting something like that up with the unknown funding factor would not be the right thing for me So as much as it was a good idea, I am learning what is right and wrong for me these days. I am still going to continue doing all of this voluntarily as it’s a great help for me and I get a lot from it and I feel that it is helping others also. So onwards and upwards as the old saying goes and I will keep you posted of all my news…..
PS – I still have a few wristbands left if anyone would like to get order then please see:
Recently I have been really tired which can be a bit of a pain but I am going to try to not let it get me down. The thing is life is pretty good at the moment, I am feeling good about things and I have been keeping very busy and my mind occupied. The page has been going great and new members joining all the time and lots of really good interactions. I had a telephone interview last week with a lovely researcher from: http://www.mentalhealth.org.uk/ which has also got new people coming along to see my pages which is great! The Mental Health Foundation posted links on both Facebook and Twitter so I am a very happy bunny.
I have been having a bit of a tough time as usual with the one I am caring for, same old really but I am not going to let that get me down either. I really try my best to help him at all times but sometimes he doesn’t want to listen and he is having the same old mood swings. Last night he went to his own place which gives me a bit of time and space to myself so can’t complain.
I have been doing a fair amount of exercise recently which is making me feel better also. I have been trying to work out every other day and I notice a bit of difference. Earlier in the year when I was training for my 1/2 marathon I didn’t seem to lose much weight but I was still coming off the anti-depressant’s then. So hopefully if I keep this up then I will lose the weight I have been wanting to lose some and this will make me happier again.
I had my supervision yesterday for the voluntary work that I do, all went well and got treated to lunch again, lucky me! I get on really well with my supervisor and she believes in me which is something that keeps me going. The voluntary work that I do, including this blog and the new fan page also keeps me going, lets keep it like this, onwards and upwards…. :)
Well I am back on track and had my first work out for a while yesterday and I am aching a bit today. Still I know it’s worth it as I will start feeling better again once I get back into the routine of exercise. I have started working on my new project and it’s been keeping me busy, what better than a support network for people with PD. I know there are lots of websites about PD, but nothing on Facebook so far so I think it will be of good use. The only problem is; Facebook keeps changing which makes it slightly harder to get more fans to your page unless you’re the big brand names. Before you could suggest your page and all your friends also, now you can only share, so annoying.
I have spent the last year working on pages as a volunteer and doing this has really helped me a lot. I have kept myself busy going to meetings and researching online to find out what’s going on. I also take part in a meeting at my local DAAT which is the alcohol alliance and get a chance to have my say there also. The more I do the better I feel as it doesn’t allow my mind to run wild and think of all the miserable things happening around me. Take the world for example, the earthquake in Japan and the war in Libya, the more you watch the worse you feel. So only keep an eye on it now rather than watching to see what’s going to happen next if you get my drift?
Today I am going over to visit my sister and fix her computer for her so looking forward to seeing her. I don’t see my sister that often as she a very busy PR lady and lives a fair distance away. I can’t have another workout today as my muscles ache but will make darn sure I do tomorrow….
Well it’s been a while once again since I have come on here for a little chat. Life has been pretty busy the last month so just popping on with an update. The one I look after has been in hospital for almost a week so I had a lot of running around to do, back and forth to the hospital and so on.
I am still doing my voluntary work, plugging away and working on a couple of my own projects also. I guess the kinda all tie in together but they are separate at the moment. I had a few dodgy weeks where I was feeling down and my mood was slipping but luckily things are on the up again. The thing is with depression you really need to look at for the sign’s, if you don’t it can take over and before you know it you are heading towards a black hole. The work I do on-line keeps me nice and busy and obviously looking after someone and two kittens fills my time pretty well.
The good news is I have not had a bad episode for quite some time now so I am really pleased about that. In 2008 / 2009 things were pretty different and at times I just felt like giving up on everything. Not now though, I am happy to be here and living such a nicer and calmer life. I don’ go out much anymore, apart from for nice meals or out for a drive, I am much happier not seeing people who want to wreck their live’s anyway. The good news is slowly the stigma of mental illness seems to be fading and there is a better understanding of it out there. One day I hope it will be totally accepted and be part of the norm as any sufferer will know how hard it is.
I need to get back into exercising also, I have had a couple of injury’s and was unwell for a while so will have to go easy. The thing is; exercise is really good for the mind and when I do it, I feel so much better!
So onwards and upwards as they say……….
Once again a bit gap since I have had to the chance to get on here and blab about life. Been really busy since I last came on and time seem’s to be flying, still can’t complain better to be busy than not. My neighbour went away last week so we decided to paint her flat for her as it really needed it. Most of my free time last week was spent on that as it was a bit of a project. My job was gunning the wall’s with mastic and then cleaning the place as we went along and then some good deep cleaning also. The thing is; I really enjoy cleaning, I’m a bit of a clean freak, it’s the OCD in me I would say. I do find it very therapeutic and the end result is always good and so what with a paint job then a nice clean finish will enhance the end result.
Apart from that I have still been training, I did a 15 mile bike ride during the week and a 10.5 mile run yesterday so happy with that. Mind you still haven’t shifted any weight as yet so get a little frustrated there. Mind you I have been feeling good so must be all the hard work and fresh air paying off with a twist of being so busy. As I said before, the depression is really good at the moment, good in the way that I’m not feeling down and it’s not affecting me. Busy Bee is the key to no anxiety………………
My work is much the same, still doing my voluntary stuff and keeping an eye out for any good opportunities. I am doing my course this week, which I am dreading as it’s 2 days in a row and it’s very tiring and draining. The drive is a mission also, rush hour traffic across London, not nice, still better than being a sardine stuck on the tube! Once that’s over I should be a qualified trainer and I am meant to be training front line staff on Personality Disorder if all goes to plan
I am still seeing my counsellor once a week too which is also a great thing for me as I am getting the chance to talk about things and get them off my chest rather than thinking or worrying too much.
So this week is already a busy one and hopefully I can get a bit of rest bite next week… fingers crossed.