Strange Happenings
Well it’s been a funny old week to be honest and lots of strange happenings, happening all around us as we speak. First there was the sighting of what seemed to be two suns in China, the earthquakes and now the fish. Millions of fish have washed up in both Australia and America, apparently oxygen starved and the water being too warm for them. I have been keeping an eye on the Global Earthquake map and they are happening all the time especially near Japan, America and Alaska. Without all that, there is the civil unrest in Libya which is ongoing and whether us and the Americans are going to go in and enforce a no fly zone, all a bit worrying!
I have been fair bit of reading the past week and watching a lot of videos and a lot of people think that Nibiru (planet x) is heading towards us and causing mayhem. I looked on Google sky last night and Sirius (the brightest star) as somehow been edited, is there something they don’t want us to see?? I have seen video footage of tanks being taken by train across the US and read stories of FEMA buying up a billion dollar’s of freeze-dried food, what are they expecting?? The moon is meant to be really close to our planet next week which is also meant to cause a lot of problems too. So it all sounds doom and gloom really but the thing is the evidence show’s that strange things are really happening at the moment.
I haven’t been feeling great in myself either, my back hurts a lot between my shoulder blades and sometimes still getting shoulder pain from what the doctor thinks is gall stone’s. I am finding it hard to train and I am meant to be running a 1/2 marathon soon but it’s not looking very likely at the moment. I have a scan next week to find out about the possible gall stone’s so then I guess I will know some more. Waiting for results as we all know can be a horrible and worrying time and I have had quite a few tests done recently!
On a happier note my kittens are getting on great, they both get on so well now and bring a smile to my face when I get up. I love watching them chase each other around and play fight, it’s just so funny. The pair of them are in Sync also which is funny, they eat at the same time, sleep, clean themselves and so on… the joy! 
Oh and I seem to be getting lots more its all the time so I must keep coming on and writing… 
Stress
The last couple of week have been quite stressful for me; I have not been sleeping well and been feeling sick a lot of the time. On top of that things haven’t been that great at home, been going through the mill I guess. I am waiting for an ultrasound to find out whether I have gallstones and also waiting on some other results. I need to book in to see my doctor to get some of the results and talk about what’s been going on.
My sleep pattern seems to have gone all out-of-place and I am not going to bed at my usual time, bit gutted as only a month or so ago things were really looking up. I am some camomile tea in the cupboard so maybe I should start giving that a try in the evening to help me feel tired at a better time. I know the stress hasn’t been helping either, stress can play a big part in not being able to get to sleep.
I still have a fair bit of pain in my back so still going to see the Osteopath, I have cut down my training but tried to run yesterday but wasn’t that great. I did run 10.4 miles but it was very slow and after drinking a bottle of Lucozade after I felt pretty sick for a few hours so can’t win really. I have woken up this morning with a really sore ankle also so no doubt that’s got some sort of strain also, just great.
I feel like I am coming on here and all I have to do is moan, not really what I want to be coming on here for, it was so positive before. Maybe the depression is coming back a bit due to the way I am feeling as I have been sleeping in more and lacking quite a bit of energy. I knew there was no magical cure but was on a really good run for quite a long time which was a real nice change for me. I am not going back on the old tablets however as I believe them to be the cause of the excess weight that I put on and I am still struggling hard to shift it.
My kitten’s are getting on well however, we have had Lucky for almost for weeks now and he growing up rather nicely. Him and the older kitten get on really well now and they are always running around after each other and play fighting. Mind you twice the mess to clear up now and back to more hoovering but it a small price for the pleasure!
I am hoping things pick up this week as I don’t like feeling the way I have been, hopefully seeing the doctor will put my mind at a bit of rest. I am going to try to keep as busy as I can and get out and about and do things.
Still been looking out for a new car but haven’t made my mind up yet……………
Time
Gosh it’s been such a long time since I’ve been on here to talk about what’s been going on. The main thing is time, finding time, just been so busy doing one thing or another. Been trying to train but been having a lot of problems with my back and shoulder so been going to the Osteopath too! I have also been busy being a carer, once again he is trying to cut down the drink which in turn means stress. Oh and of course I have been busy being a new Mum to my new kitty Lucky.
I am still doing my volunteering and have a new project to work on, although not having to put too much time in. No news on the PD training that I’m meant to be doing, waiting for NHS cuts and changes to settle down. I have been asked to do a talking from experience project though and if that happens then that will add more to my diary.
I found out I may have gallstone’s recently so that has brought me down a little as I haven’t been feeling right for a while and now I may have found out the cause. I now have to wait for an ultrasound scan to find out my fate and cut out any fatty foods, watching what I eat. I do have a pretty good diet but I do like the occasional take way but sadly that’s a no no at the moment.
I have set up another fan page for fun, adding all my favourite music which is a fun thing and a pilot to see how it goes. I could also use it as a platform for things I would like to do in the future if it does do well.
Back again with an update soon……………………..
Lucky
Well how tie has flown by, it’s been a busy week for me, have not even had a chance to come on and write. All weekend I was looking online to find a kitten, my kitten is 9 months and wanted to find a friend for her. The problem is so many people want kitten’s so if you’re not first in then they are normally taken. Plus I’m a bit picky and wanted to find the perfect kitten so that made it harder also. Still I kept persevering and eventually I found a little stunner on Tuesday morning. I sent a text immediately and asked if he was still available, said that I wanted him if so and the reply was good news. I carried on texting and asking questions until a blow came saying someone was coming to pick up the kitten later. I was pretty gutted as I was unable to call at the time so I politely replied saying I had said from the first text I wanted him. Not long after that I got a reply saying I was correct so I made a call and said I would come later to collect him. So in the evening, I drove over and collected my new bundle of joy and I am so happy that I did. The little one looks like the big one when she was little and has all the same trait’s, it’s great.
As my older one is female and the younger one is male I thought they would get on easier, however the first introduction there was a lot of hissing. Most of the hissing was from my older kitten and I was a little worried to begin with, although I spoke to my friend and she reminded me this is normal for the first few days. Luckily now they are getting on a lot better now 3 days on, chasing each other around the place, so happy days. We were trying to think of names for him too, we were going to call him magic although in the end I decided it didn’t sound right. The little one has a small white marking on his chest and we nearly lost him to somebody else so I we decided to call him Lucky.
So apart from all the stuff with the kitten’s, I am still sore due to my injury and I am going back to the Osteopath today for some more work. I really ache this morning as I went for a run yesterday so I am glad my appointment is today.
I have also been asked to take part in a talking from experience project s going for a meeting to talk about that in a couple of weeks. It’s a good way to educate young people about your own experience and try to dissuade them from making the same mistakes.
I went to see my psychiatrist this week, although it was a new one this time, I rather liked the old one to be honest. The problem is the SHO’s (who work under the psychiatrist’s) they rotate every 6 months so you end up with new one’s after a while. I told him how well I am doing and that I have stopped my medication and all was fine. It’s really nice to be free from the tunnel of darkness for once as that has been a reoccurring pattern in my life. I am thankful that I am busy enough not to think and worry about my problems as I did on the past and am looking forward nicely. I have been networking with lots of people that work in the BPD side of things too and I am hoping that something good will come out there also.
I need a haircut……… so I am going in the morning to get my hair cut and this time even shorter than before. It’s such a mess at the moment that I’m wearing hats all the time. I talked about pampering last weekend and didn’t do enough so maybe I can return to it this weekend.
