Well it’s New Year’ Day and haven’t been on for some time I’m afraid, busy, busy and buggy buggy. After being so excited about Christmas and do a hell of a lot of running, I got a big of a buy. Nasty sore throat, lots of coughing and generally not feeling well as like many other people at the moment. Christmas day was fine, Santa delivered his stocking in the night and smoked salmon and cream cheese for breakfast, yummy! We opened our presents and lots if nice surprises and then I got on with the cooking. I really went for it, cooked a pheasant for the first time, all the trimmings and it was lovely! Chilled mostly for the rest of the day and then woke up feeling rough on Boxing day. A few days ill which wasn’t great so rested up and did all the right things and starting to feel more human again now.
Last night was different, we stayed in and I cooked, I made rabbit and, which again I’ve never cooked before, it came out great. I really enjoy cooking and put a lot of passion in so I guess tat helps. After dinner we watched TV till midnight and saw the London firework ceremony on the TV. I put the surround sound on and it was great and then I played a remix of Auld Lang Syne on my desktop on my really loud speakers too. We let off some fireworks from the balcony and I set up my Dj Laser which I pointed towards the pub down the road, really fun. Had a little boogie and then time for bed, had a few snacks and was in bed for 1am. In my past life it might have been 1am 24 hours later which is a complete change for me.
Everything had been going great really until this morning, he had one of his usual turns and left my place and headed home. It’s really hard when you care for someone (literally) and in heart when they behave in such a way. I mean it turns out he was upset about me and my laser showing off, he just can’t handles things, it’s a nightmare. So I’ve had a day of peace and because I was fed up I put it to some good use. I made a project for my volunteer work and I am really pleased with the outcome, spent hours on it so it should be good I am busy trying to send the file to my wonderful supervisor and hope she is impressed with my work.
Want to get out training tomorrow, either a run or a very long ride on my bike, can let out some of these feelings at the same time. Fingers crossed I’m feeling up to it as I know just how great it makes me feel. I always have to watch out for my depression as it can come slamming back before I know it. So on that note, gonna chill out, watch Eastender’s, have an early night and hopefully a workout tomorrow
Well it’s one week till Christmas and finally I am starting to feel a bit better, all the working out must be paying off. So far this week I have done 2 eighty minute runs, mind you the bottom’s of my feet are pretty sore! I was thinking about doing a workout today but then thinking if I have another days rest then tomorrow’s workout may benefit
Finally I have all my Christmas presents sorted, I had to have a last minute dash to the shops yesterday as most of my presents got lost. I wouldn’t mind but I ordered them in November and the stupid courier company managed to lose them. Since they were lost I have been chasing the order and keep being told they are coming. Well that wasn’t till yesterday when I spent about an hour on two phone calls only to find out the replacements hadn’t been sent out! I was fuming, although for some reason I was shouting, swearing or screaming, I was quite calm in fact. So that was it, I got in my car and went to the shops and replaced all the presents and came home and wrapped them all up. Not bad really and now I just have a nice big fat letter of complaint to write as the service I received was terrible.
I have a table full of presents and I am nice and organised, have got food for today so I don’t have to join the shopping madness. I am sure the shops are going to be packed out so thankfully I can concentrate on the housework. I am still quite worried for the one I care for however; as he’s still drinking and needs to cut down. I got up this morning and he had drank more than I wanted him to and I know he will be feeling the effects later. The cold weather just gets to his nerves, that combined with withdrawal’s just makes him shake. I am really worried that he might not even make Christmas and end up in hospital as he has a number of health problems. I do my best to try and help him and it’s only he who can cut down and him only. I have bought him lots of wonderful presents for Christmas and he has for me but the best present for me would be for him to be better.