Morning
Well I woke up at the lovely time of 5am and woke up to a living room full of feathers, my lovely cats decided to bring me a present. So I had to get to the hoover out straight away and hoover up as there were feathers all over the floor. I am having my morning fresh coffee and thinking about what I am going to get up to today. I took one of my cats to my friends grooming parlour last week as she is long-haired and it helps to get her groomed and looking nice. I am considering taking the other one there today as he has never been although he is different to her. The other cat is short-haired although a groom would do him good as she gets out all the dead hairs. Plus he gets a bath but the problem is he is very timid and he might not even come back in time. The other cat is good with other people but my male cat is quite the opposite, he runs when strangers come in. I guess I am going to still do some deciding but if I am going to go then I need to take him early so any other animals don’t frighten him.
I have so much to tell you and in May I did so many posts but I have been so busy that I haven’t had so many chances to sit down and write to you all. The one I care for court case is finally over and guess what, he WON! Thanks to put input, the solicitor and barrister, the court decided in his favour which was a weight off my shoulders. It was not an easy case to win as in his borough there is a huge housing shortage and the odds were pretty much against him. The case was very long and the first day we were there from 9am to 6pm and it was soooo tiring. The good thing was had a lady judge who was compassionate and the other sides barrister was a bit of a witch and she could see and even stood up for the pair of us in fact on a number of occasions. The barrister brought him to tears at one point, tried to question my ability due to mental health issues and then manipulated him into saying something that was not even the truth. The good thing was the judge saw it and she also believed all of my evidence which was fact to the point where me telling the truth could have jeopodised him somewhat. But that is what I am all about, I tell the truth and that’s how I wanted to be on the day was truthful but guess she respected me for it. I had to tell the court that he had been staying with me for most of the last twelve months or longer and this was because the council had forced us to get rid of a lot of his stuff. Like I said it could have jeoppodused him as the case was about his property but luckily instead of me making up a story I told the truth. At the end when the judge did her submissions, she pointed out that everything I said had helped her make up a picture of what had happened. I am glad it is finally over now as I had been carrying the whole thing on my shoulders and was really tough if I’m honest. The one I care for has calmed down a bit now and has not been drinking as much, the fact he thought he was going to have to leave was impacting him differently. I have also let him stay at his place and been having time to myself which has really been a help for me also. I feel more free at the moment and that I can do the things that I need to do without having him here and just getting on with what I need to to. I have been going over to him on most days, taking his meds and buying him some of the bits that he needs. I am also speaking to him on the phone a couple of times a day also but the peace is very nice.
I have been having some trouble with my meds for some time, I hadn’t been taking a lot but through going through a rough patch for a while I started again. I was only taking a low dose of an anti-depressant and tried to see if it would help again, I tried for about 5 weeks and they did liven me up but they still weren’t right for me. So low and behold I came off of them and am going down the natural route now. I was also trying to come off my sleeping pills, I had been on them for the best part of 2 years and for about 6 months, I was only taking a small amount most nights but just couldn’t seem to get off them completely. Low and behold with a lot of persistance, I have now manage to stop them for a good few weeks now. I feel so much better, I am only taking vitamins now and the odd painkiller for when I get any pain or headaches which I do on occasion. I have been taking a mineral solution that a friend recommended to me and that seems to have helped me quite a lot also. I have more energy now, my head feels a lot more clear and I am just feeling generally better in myself which is something to smile about. I have been getting a lot done and I have been enjoying life more than I have done for while so things more of an improvement for me at the moment. I may have a couple of options for getting myself back into work also, I have wooed a couple of people and will wait to see the outcome. I was going to try and set up a social enterprise but I have now decided against it as I am fully aware of my triggers. Stress being one of them and setting something like that up with the unknown funding factor would not be the right thing for me So as much as it was a good idea, I am learning what is right and wrong for me these days. I am still going to continue doing all of this voluntarily as it’s a great help for me and I get a lot from it and I feel that it is helping others also. So onwards and upwards as the old saying goes and I will keep you posted of all my news….. 
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Groomed kitty
Early Birds
Gosh I only went to bed after 11pm and woke up again at 3:30am, 4 hours sleep is not enough, I am going to be tired and grumpy later… ha! It’s been a fairly busy week this week so far, had a lot to get on with which has kept me pretty busy. My car was in for a repair and got it back yesterday so that made me smile, although I haven’t driven it very far yet. Apparently it’s going to be hammering in down with rain later so doubt I will be driving too far today either. I went for a couple of walks yesterday as it was nice and sunny but now with the rain forecast today I doubt I will get to walk. Still I could try to have a go on the cross trainer as I haven’t done for ages and maybe it will cheer me up a bit. Been a bit down in the dumps this week, not for any particular reason, just been feeling a bit flat. I haven’t been sleeping great which I guess doesn’t help and I have had a lot on my mind. We have the judgement on the case later this week for the one I care for so guess that’s been playing on my mind a bit. As I said before, he has been hitting self destruct a bit which is hard as he can take things out on me at the same time. The person that was brining a little light into my life seems to have gone a bit wrong so guess that’s not helping either. Still one of my cats is sitting by the window staring at me with her pretty face and that has brought me a little smile.
I do need to get some more exercise going as that normally makes me feel better. I have been smoking too much again, my attempts at giving up have not gone too well although I am still going to try again. I was in the supermarket yesterday and the lady was giving out some info so I gave her my details and I will be hearing from them soon. A more structured programme has been developed in my area where you get support, advice, stop smoking aids and also groups. Maybe that will help me to succeed a bit further this time as I know I want to do it, I just seem to hit brick walls along the way.
Gosh this seems like a miserable, moan moan, winge winge, post, where has all my positivity gone may I ask… Well I guess, life is not like that and if I only wrote when I was in a good mood then you would only see one side of what life is like. Oh and the rain started coming down now as well, ha, one of the cats wants to go out but she won’t like it. I hope that the rain falls and clears the sky so I get to go out for a nice walk today at some point. I have a fair few things to get on with today and keeping busy is one of the things that keeps me going. So for now, its ciao and will be back with some news soon………… 
Morning
Hello you lovely people,
My word had some much going on lately haven’t had the chance to come on for a chat about what’s been going on in my crazy little world. Plus the couple of times that I did come on to write the site was down which was rather unusual as it’s normally reliable. Been up since 4:45am, one of my lovely cats decided to sit outside my bedroom door meowing because he was hungry, little sod! Did try to go back to sleep but once I am normally awake then unless I am really tired then that’s me. Still the sun has just started to come up now and looks like we might even be getting a decent day ahead.
Since the last time I wrote the one I care for spent a night in hospital due to his seizures as he normally has them in clusters. On the Thursday we had his court hearing as the council want to move him out of his flat which was a VERY long day. I was there as his carer and we sat through all the evidence from the council in the morning. The truth be known the council seemed to be telling a whole bunch of porkie’s, there stories were all very patchy or they will give I don’t know, I don’t remember answers. It was very hard and he wasn’t feeling that good and at one point I had to warn them that he may have a seizure and we had to take breaks. At lunch I got him something warm to eat and we sat in the car and warmed him up as the room had been very cold. The afternoon seemed a bit better although this time it was our turn to give evidence. Now bearing in mind he was quite wobbly in the morning and looked like he was going to have a seizure, cross-examination was not the best time for him. I was fuming as the barrister from the other side basically manipulated him into saying he saw a document which was the initial notice which never arrived. The reason why he recognised the document was because I had shown it to him previously and it was being shown in the morning due their witness evidence. I couldn’t believe how clever she was trying to be and I wasn’t allowed to say a word to explain to him what was actually happening. The next thing she did was imply that as he saw the document that this was why he had a bad turn because he saw the document. I knew what she was doing but I couldn’t intervene which I found really hard. Still the next morning I found an old e-mail which proved that what she implied happened was not correct as the time frame was wrong and I sent this to his solicitor for the barristers submission. So I was already annoyed by the sneakiness of the barrister so when it was my turn for cross-examination I was ready with gloves on. I answered all my questions as honest as possible and whenever she tried to imply something negative towards me I came back with an answer she wasn’t expecting. At one point she asked about my mental health issues and the judge stepped in to ask if she was questioning my ability which I thought was good. Still only one issue came up about how many stairs I have at my place as he stays with me quite often and at the end of the day, it ‘s my home not his. Oh and the fact he uses a bath round my place which again it’s my place not his and I don’t need to watch him so often when he has a walk in shower at his place. So all in all, it was a very long day and we didn’t have enough time for the judge to make her decision. The next part of the case will be held this Friday which is planned for a few hours and then we shall find out what the judge has decided. Hopefully she will see that the council were not being truthful and there were more things in his favour rather than against. To be honest it’s taking its toll on him also as he has been hitting self destruct a bit so a good outcome would be better for him.
The weekend it was the Queen’s Diamond Jubilee and on the Saturday I got up early and went out and about. I couldn’t get hold of him for most of the day so I presumed he had gone home and fallen asleep. Finally in the evening I got a call from him saying he was in hospital so then I knew that he had, had another seizure. On the phone he told me the hospital had lost all his stuff so could I bring some clothes and things to the hospital for him. The stuff included the bag I got for him which has all his important items in so I immediately called the bank to cancel his band card. I grabbed some things for him and got to the hospital as quick as I could to find out what happened. On the way I called security on my bluetooth to see if they had found or been given anything but they said that they hadn’t. Basically when they put him on a trolley they took his clothes off, coat and trainers and proceeded by putting it all on the trolley with his little bag he carries. Somewhere along the way his stuff had either been picked up or he had moved onto another trolley without his belongings. I was fuming “again” as all he had been left with was his socks, boxers, track suit bottoms and a hospital gown, nothing else! No money, no keys, no phone number to call me as they were in his wallet, luckily he remembered my house number or he would have been in more trouble until I found him. I had to go around the departments asking what had happened and try to get some help which wasn’t much. I did this on the Saturday and Sunday and I was stressed out as he had keys to my place also and had written my address down also. So that weekend was a total nightmare and as it was a double bank holiday they couldn’t check their safe until the Wednesday, or so they say. On the Wednesday I got in touch with the hospital and they said that nothing had been found so I then had to write-up a letter of complaint and describe what had been lost. I also had to write the value of the items and the possibility of getting locks changed as well. I had to phone the police due to the fact the items could have been stolen and the fact that they were lost in a place of care. One of the sisters had tried to claim he was responsible so I had to point out that he was post seizure so the hospital in fact were responsible, the list goes on. Still in the evening I watched the Queen’s Jubilee concert which I enjoyed very much and I got the chance to relax.
Last Tuesday, ten days later I went on a course for a day which I will talk about later, which was a very long day and I got a call on the way home. It was only the CT department and she had found a note that I put into his wallet. The note says if the person is taken to hospital with seizures then to call these numbers, the first being mine. I was like “you haven’t gone and found all his stuff have you?”. The lady replied by telling me that she had found his things and the note had enabled her to call me. Ten days later his stuff had been found on a trolley!! The trolley had been going around the hospital without anyone noticing it was on there or anyone checking it was there after we asked many departments where his thing were. I kept saying to staff it must be there somewhere as the whole lot disappeared together rather than just one thing. So the good news was, he got all his belongings back without a thing missing and the relief that they keys were safe was good news too! I went and picked it all up but I told them the complaint still needed to stand due to all that had happened from start to finish.
Any good news for me… Nope, ha ha, the friend that was messaging me a lot has been a bit of a nightmare. I couldn’t get my head around all of it and in the past week he has done nothing but let me down. I have been strong this time and told him that I was annoyed and when I missed his call yesterday I didn’t return it as he would expect. I was busy anyway, spent the day with an old mate, mixing some tunes and cooking a roast. Still that’s another story for another time as I am sure you will be exhausted after reading a snippet of the last couple of weeks, he he…
The view this morning
