Time
Gosh it’s been such a long time since I’ve been on here to talk about what’s been going on. The main thing is time, finding time, just been so busy doing one thing or another. Been trying to train but been having a lot of problems with my back and shoulder so been going to the Osteopath too! I have also been busy being a carer, once again he is trying to cut down the drink which in turn means stress. Oh and of course I have been busy being a new Mum to my new kitty Lucky. 
I am still doing my volunteering and have a new project to work on, although not having to put too much time in. No news on the PD training that I’m meant to be doing, waiting for NHS cuts and changes to settle down. I have been asked to do a talking from experience project though and if that happens then that will add more to my diary.
I found out I may have gallstone’s recently so that has brought me down a little as I haven’t been feeling right for a while and now I may have found out the cause. I now have to wait for an ultrasound scan to find out my fate and cut out any fatty foods, watching what I eat. I do have a pretty good diet but I do like the occasional take way but sadly that’s a no no at the moment.
I have set up another fan page for fun, adding all my favourite music which is a fun thing and a pilot to see how it goes. I could also use it as a platform for things I would like to do in the future if it does do well. 
Back again with an update soon……………………..
Brighter Days
Things are still really good at the moment so I am happy to say that I’m not complaining. I have been so busy what with my PD course, voluntary work and then looking the one that I care for. I completed my course last week so really pleased that I can start doing some training soon. I went for a meeting at my Psychotherapy service today and had a chat with my therapist before we started about how it all went.
The meeting went well also, we all had to give our feedback about how we found the service and the one thing that we all agreed is what a good service we have all had. Some area’s are not so lucky to have such good service’s but hopefully after the feedback then other area’s will get the PD service they deserve and are entitled to.
I also had my monthly supervision this week so had a good chat about things that have been going on recently. I was lucky enough to be taken for lunch also so that was nice after the long drive to Kent. Mind you next time we are going to try it on the telephone, going to be strange… but will see how it goes.
Things in general are on the up and that in turn makes my days brighter… in 2008 I was hardly functioning and now I am really busy doing so many positive things… Happy days
PS – need to do another training session, not long till my half marathon now…………. :s
Insomnia
Well I’m back, early in fact as I didn’t think i’d be writing today but after looking at my stat’s it make’s me happy that people are reading my blog and the amount is growing.
Last night I really didn’t sleep well and sod’s law I knew I needed to be up nice and early for day 2 of course today. I can’t blame the cat this time as she was really well behaved last night, I just was half awake some of the night. Still I don’t feel too awful this evening and hopefully I am going to get lots of extra Z’s tonight to make up for it. I am still reducing my medication very slowly so it’s more than likely that but I think the overall outcome in the end will be good.
So yes, day 2 of my course today and even though I was tired and anxious it wasn’t as hard as I thought it was going to be. Only one more day to go then hopefully we are going to have our discussion’s of how we are going to roll the training out. The exciting part about it is that all front line staff will be training and this will give them a much better understanding of Personality Disorder. Having spent much of my life not knowing what was wrong and why I was doing the things I was it makes me much happier knowing what it’s all about. The good thing is too, that once there’s more awareness then there will hopefully be less stigma and ignorance around the subject and staff won’t be so hard on patient’s coming in with Personality difficulties.
Unfortunatly because I’m so busy, it means I can’t do any training, well not until Friday as I will have the time to then. I might go for a monster to long run to make up for it and having had the rest I hope to have a good stamina for it.
My other half is in a good mood today which is nice, I know I have been out all day but it’s nice to come back and not get a hard time. I much prefer it when were getting on as it takes a lot of stress away for me then which in turn makes me happy. As I am his carer I really need to look into doing it officially soon however as it my help out my situation. Yesterday we didn’t have such a good day which really got me down for a while, still I had a sleep then I got over it.
But for now it’s time for me to get on with some other stuff for now but will be again very soon……………….
Job done
Well we finally finished getting my neighbours flat last night which was good as she was going to stay at her Mum’s but decided to come home. I had a fight with the wall as she had a mirror hanging but it wasn’t holding as our walls are all thin and crispy plasterboard, lol. I ended up making a nice hole which had to be filled and then put some new fitting up which were made for plasterboard, phew. Last bit of tidying up, putting door handles back on and the place was finally looking really nice. I got the call that she had changed her mind and when she walked in she nearly cried, was a nice feeling. My neighbour couldn’t believe how much better it looked and how much I had cleaned the place up.
So now that’s over got to get ready for my course for the next two days, I have not been enjoying the theory side of things but sure it will be fine in the end. I know that it’s a good thing and the more awareness out there about Personality Disorder the better understanding there will be coming from front line staff. The good thing is, is this where it’s being rolled out, to all front line staff that will come into contact with patients, i.e. doctors, nurses, psychiatrist, mental health workers, social workers, police and so on. As I said before that I am going to be training people about this in the near future so looking forward to the challenge of it. I am also good with computers so my worker want’s me to handle that side of things so that’s all good.
Nightmare’s with him last night, it seemed the painting never helped him cut down, he did a great job although I was hoping that as he was busy he would not need to drink much. I kept reminding him that was the idea but he just doesn’t want to listen to me at the moment. I got some verbal abuse when I came to bed late last night after spending time with my neighbour when she got back so that wasn’t really nice. Just going to have to see how he is when he wakes up this morning… :/
Still a bit achy from all the running but going to see if I can fit some sort of workout in today, maybe will go for a long ride on my bike. I like my time out when I can just put my music on and not have to worry for an hour or two as being a carer that’s all part of it, I’m afraid.
So a busy couple of days coming up but then I can take it easy at the weekend but no doubt I will be putting some time into cleaning my flat. I like my place to be nice and clean and once again it keeps me occupied, will be back in touch after my two days of hard work on the course…….
