Oh dear, tired again, after going to sleep about 11:30pm last night I have been woken up again by just before 4am by one of my darling cats. Once I am awake I find it very hard to get back to sleep, so now I am up, I’ve had a banana, some cereal and a cup of fresh coffee. Just tried to lay down again but now I have a coffee, my mind is like bing… no chance of getting a nap at the moment so thought I may as well do a little post.
A couple of months ago the one I care for said he would buy me a new TV for Easter as he can be kind like that (sometimes) and I took some Xmas presents back too. To cut a long story short, I did a lot of shopping around and bought a TV but unfortunately it was a scam and the money was stolen. Through my own investigations I realised that the money was lost, reported it to the bank, cancelled the card, reported it to action fraud and then made copies for the bank. Eventually after about a month the money was returned but I didn’t realise until about a couple of weeks later. So for the last week I have been busy hunting down the TV I want but this time trying to find a reputable company and eventually I did. So I spent most of Monday and Tuesday on the computer scanning websites and finally yesterday, I found exactly what I wanted and it should be coming by Saturday! Such exciting stuff to be honest as I like my technology and this one is pretty awesome I must admit. Ha, that wasn’t such a short story after all…
Yes so this week, it’s been TV hunting mainly, I still have ache’s and pains most places but trying to put up with them or take good old-fashioned paracetamol. I had some acupuncture on Monday, a scan on Tuesday and finally on Monday I am seeing the Neurologist at the hospital. Those who have been following the blog will know that this is a long time coming as all these problems began in September / October last year and the wait has been never-ending. Still on the up side, I am apparently seeing the top man and hopefully he can help me to find out what is going on. I have a long list of al the problems that I have been suffering with to tell him about and hopefully he will arrange the appropriate tests. Sometime’s I just feel like I am falling apart but I just try to get on with things and do something else to distract myself to stop myself thinking. I mean it was only the weekend before last that I spent a whole weekend in hospital so I am just pleased to be at home coping. I missed my cats too much whilst I was in there, they mean so much to me and I could only use my phone to get on-line which isn’t quite the same as my super-duper laptop.
I am still getting messages most days from my old friend which certainly cheers me up, we have a lot of banter with the messages and have a good laugh also. I am still confused to be honest about what’s going on, I mean would a friend message me like nearly every day just to see how I am? Well I will be seeing him in a couple of weeks so maybe I will find out a bit more as I personally can’t work it all out. I am really enjoying all the messages and the banter but as they are so frequent I am getting a little bit attached. I have something to look forward to most days which make’s me smile and I have the hunch that the feeling is mutual. Guess I just don’t want to get hurt as I have been hurt so many times in the past. I am going to have to protect myself in some way, answers on a postcard please, lol.
Still getting orders for the last of the remaining Wristbands which means I can get the competition started shortly also…
Yesterday I was doing some tweaks on the blog and I was looking around and noticed that it say’s 1679 people have subscribed to this blog!! Now I had to do a double take as I am still not sure if it’s for real but when I checked on another browser it was saying the same. So if this is the case, then that is just totally awesome and has certainly cheered me up after a somewhat rubbish weekend.
I bought some prizes yesterday with some of the money raised from the PDSN wristbands and it’s all very exciting! I will be running the first PDSN competition online and have some nice prizes to give out which I feel is along the subject line of mental health. I really am getting so much out of running this project and it’s a joy to come on each day and see how well it’s growing. The bigger the page’s grow then the more awareness there will be and in turn this will help to reduce the stigma. Personality Disorder does sometimes get misrepresented by the media or misunderstood and misjudged my the general public. Gosh a lot of mis’s there, ha ha!
I have been up early again this morning as my little cat Lucky decided it would be nice to wake me up at 04:30! As usual he sits in a box on top of a cabinet by my bedroom door meowing! Should he not get attention from that then he will start pushing the door with his paw which bangs and wakes me up. Little sod, gotta love him but think I may need a nap at some point today……..