Gosh my doctors are a nightmare, just can’t seem to get anywhere with them or get an appointment for a week after I call. I saw a doctor over 2 weeks ago who was going to make me a new referral to Neurology but guess what that got messed up too. Once I found out that she hadn’t done it a week later, I book another appointment which I got for a week later. When I got to the doctor’s she wasn’t there and I just saw this other rude doctor who hardly looked at me and was quite rude in fact. I told him the problem and he just tapped on the computer saying he didn’t even know how to do it! I asked for some blood tests as through loads of research I think I may have found the problem myself. Could it be that I am lacking in a vitamin, yes something as simple as that can cause all the symptoms I have been having. I have been on these other tablets for quite some time and through lots of research I have found out they can cause this deficiency. I managed to get another appointment yesterday with a doctor there that I know and asked him if he would prescribe me this vitamin. The answer was no and I told him all about my symptoms and he seemed to agree that I could be deficient also. Although at the same time he seemed a bit shady with the fact I may had realised that one of my tablets could have been the cause as I could sense something at that point. The doctor has now referred me to a Haematologist which I have to wait another 18 days for which is so frustrating. Still who knows, I may even be able to get the answers that I’m looking for rather than just having a mystery illness… I have stopped the tablets that I think have been affecting me and I have actually lost of a bit of weight also which is always nice. I am going to try to keep the anxiety at bay as the symptoms I am suffering are horrible and they frighten me a lot of the time.
I had a good nights sleep last night, have been for a walk to the supermarket this morning and going to be heading out in the car shortly. Hopefully I can try to stay positive, eat lots of nice food and be happy at home with my lovely cats…. 
Lovely sunrise
Good luck. I hope that they can find out very soon what is wrong exactly and get the care and treatment of which you are most deserving of.
All the best,
The Quiet Borderline
http://quietbpd.wordpress.com/
Thank you, I hope so too, then I may have something positive to say
Take care of your body. It’s the only place you have to live. Jim Rohn
Finding the right cocktail (meds mix) took me years. Finding a good Dr. took time, too. I am going on 14 years after my diagnosis with BPD. I have tried so many different cocktails it is hard to remember them all, but I had to go through the trial and errors to get to one that worked… gain weight, lost weight, no feelings, too many feelings, depressed, happy… All I can say is Thank God I’m sober or else I would not be able to deal with the disease. Sobriety is the key to success with any mental health disorder. see my site and share your story, ask me how: http://www.recoverymentalhealth.com Keep your chin up… I am proud of you and love your blog.
Glad you are on the mend and thank you for your comments, I will have a look at your page.