Not Enough Time
Hello again, where does the time go when you are busy?! Once again it’s taken me some time to get on here, relax and write to you and tell you what’s been happening. My word where do I start…… One of the last things I talked about was, I was having a full body massage. Well, I went to the college and had it and oh my, it was amazing, just what I needed. The therapist was only small but she had good strength and it was an hour and 15 minutes of pure bliss. By the time she was finished I was almost in a trance and didn’t want to move for a while, he he… but eventually I did. The students there are working on hot stones at the moment so I am hoping next week that I can book for a hot stone massage. After my massage I was pretty hungry and the college also has a restaurant that they also train in and guess what at discounted rates! I had my lunch and a coffee there and it’s was all good, spent £13.50 in total with the massage so was a very happy bunny!
Some of my Christmas presents that I ordered on-line have started to arrive so it’s starting to get exciting now. I still have a lot more to come yet however and I did order a few more presents since the last time I wrote on here on the last time. The main thing I need to get next is lots of wrapping paper to wrap them all up. Oh and lots of ribbon and bow’s to make them look all pwetty 
Now onto a rather annoying note…. I was meant to be having my MRI scan last Sunday and was all ready and set to go when on Saturday I got a call. It was about 11am and the person on the phone said my appointment had been cancelled as one of the machine’s has broken down. 
I was like, could the timing be even worse, I had been waiting and worrying for 5 1/2 weeks and it only breaks down the day before! I told him I was really stressed about my symptoms so if they got any cancellations then I would be willing to go. I didn’t hear anything for a few days so I gave them a call and low and behold my appointment is now on 2nd December. So now I will find out my results a couple of weeks after that, it’s been a horrible long wait. I am still suffering with most of the same symptoms, mainly the dizziness, spasm’s and the tremble’s when I’m laying down. I have stopped drinking squash as it contains Aspartame and most “no added sugar” soft drinks do. Should the outcome be that it is MS then Aspartame can aggravate the illness and has even be known to cause it. What I do know from watching all my on-line stuff is that Aspartame is a kind of poison and really isn’t good for the body either way.
While we are on the subject of films, I watched a good film the other day called “Thrive 111111″ which is all about suppression and how money rules the world. The film gives you a different angle on things and points out how things like free energy and cancer cures have been stopped as people high up like making money. The film show’s you how the 3 main people pretty much control the world, The Rockefeller’s, Rothschild and J P Morgan. Funnily enough I have just checked and all the links to the films have been taken down, if it does come back up again, I highly recommend it.
I have also been trying to work out again and been doing some gentle workouts every couple of days, my mood is slowly picking up a bit. I am going to try to stick to it for a while as I know it helps my mood and as long as I don’t go too mad then it will be fine. When I workout too hard I have found that I feel really ill afterwards so I know that something is going on with me. It’s my birthday next week mind you, so would be nice if I lose a few pounds for that and it will also put a smile on my face.
Apart from that I have a lovely stew on that my 2 cats were watching me prepare, looking forward to that, should be ready in about an hour, yummy!
Shopping
I was round my friends a couple of days ago and he was asking about my cats so I said to him why don’t you come over and see them and so he did. I brought my friend round and he stayed at mine for a couple of nights in the end and had lots of fun playing with the cats. This is the friend I talked about some time ago that had some troubles with his health with a very serious condition. The same friend that I went to visit at the Royal London Hospital and would also visit him at his place which isn’t too far. The only problem is he makes these noises with his mouth all the time and it kinda stresses me out so was glad to drop him off yesterday, lol. I know it’s mad but kinda got this phobia of those sort of noises or people who are noisy eater’s, etc…. I know I need hypnotherapy or something really as I feel like it makes my blood pressure go up and it’s bugged me for many years.
The last couple of days I have been rather a busy bee also, been getting myself organised for Christmas this year as I did last year. I managed to go online and buy nearly all of my Christmas shopping, I am just hoping that t comes on time because last year was a total nightmare. On the first day I got most of the big things, like the main presents and yesterday I got the smaller ones, the post man is going to be busy over the next couple of weeks, he he. Glad to have got it done though, one less thing to worry about, seen as I have had a lot on my mind lately……
I have my MRI scan this Sunday, yes Sunday, that’s a funny day for a scan but that’s when I am booked in and then another 2 week wait for the results. I haven’t been trembling so much the last few nights although I still have the dizzy spells and the patchy numbness so one way or another hopefully I will find something out. In the meantime however I have started to doing a bit of light exercise which has started to pick me up a bit. Earlier this year I noticed that when I had been doing strenuous exercise I was feeling quite ill afterwards, I am not sure if this linked to what is going on with me either.
On the up side mind you, I am going for a full body massage later this morning at my local beauty college and they do it at very discounted rates. I went last week just to have a back massage and it was really nice and relaxing so a full body and head is going to be great, can’t wait!! I will let you all know how it goes and promise to come on here and write a bit more often……..
Oh and one more thing, I would like to thank Lisa at https://www.facebook.com/mentalhealthfoundation for supporting my blog and posting links to my fan-page and blog. I have passed the 2000 hit count now and for this, I am very grateful and happy! 
Just a pretty sunrise
Sorry
I just wanted to say sorry to all of you that read this blog, I have been sooooo busy and just not had the time to write on here and feel rather slack. Well a lot has been happening to say the least, but here I am once again to bring you an update. The one that I care for was going through rather a tough time and I was busy looking after him. I was struggling to get to him eat, take his tablets or comply in any shape or form really. All my energy was consumed in mainly looking after him for some time to be honest and trust me it is draining. All of that now has been taken out of my hands and I am having some respite.
Myself personally, I haven’t been that well either, I started to have dizzy spells a couple of months ago, I would be standing there and the room felt like it was spinning. After a while it was starting to freak me out and I was also having like a crackling noise in the front of my head. I went to see my doctor and she told me I had a bad ear infection and put me on a rather strong course of antibiotics. After the second day the tablets were making me feel so sick that I had to go back to the doctors and see a nurse, she couldn’t help much but I did get a call back later. I was told to reduce my daily tablets, which I did, although I still did feel sick most of the time.
One morning I got up and was having my coffee as usual when most of my left forearm went numb, then the left of my face also started feeling numb. I started having a panic attack as it was freaking me out and once I stood up I noticed my left leg also felt like it was tingling. I waited about an hour as seen as it hadn’t gone away we decided to go to hospital and get it checked out. Initially when I told them the symptoms, I was seen straight away and not long before I had a bed. I must say that Queen’s hospital were rather good on this occasion and treated me like a patient rather than someone with psych problems! Not long after a stroke nurse came to see me and she told me that it was something they would need to check for due to my symptoms. And not long after that a doctor saw me and I explained everything to him and he did a load of tests on me including a CT scan. I had my scan and once they saw that it was clear then they were happy to let me go on the basis that I would go to see the neurologist at the TIA clinic the following morning. The next morning I went to the clinic and funnily enough I was seeing the same neurologist that treats the one I care for. Rather bizarre as we recognised each other straight away and had a little joke about it, lol. I once again had to explain everything that happened step by step and he asked me loads of questions. The neurologist told me he wanted to send me for an MRI but asked me to take a low dose of aspirin in the mean time. The following Monday I was booked into see my GP and had to explain everything once again to her about what happened. I told her about my symptoms and she said to me she thinks it could be and sounds like MS. I was a bit freaked out by then and she said it more than once but she said we would have to wait to see what the scan finds. So as you can probably understand I have been pretty down and also going slightly out of my mind with worry.
So as you can probably gather things have been rather tough for me, also having the long wait for this MRI and the possibility of what could be wrong with me. I was told the MRI would be done within a few weeks, turns out the wait is 4-6 weeks! I still get dizzy a lot of the time, my face goes numb and when I am falling asleep at night I notice myself physically trembling. Oh and loads of tiredness, I am always tired and just put that down to part of the depression before. All of that in itself tells me that something is wrong although I just don’t know the answers right now and it’s still a long wait. I am having my scan in just over a week and then the results take a further couple of weeks to come back. I have however been trying to keep busy and doing some light exercise every other day or some walking to the shops.
I have been busy looking after the PDSN page and glad to see we are over 800 members now and looking forward to reaching the first target of 1000 fans! The page is going really well and we have some great people on there; supporting one another and posting nice things. I am very proud of the people that use the page and make it their own and we don’t have any problems with people saying the wrong things on there either. And just one last thing, I have noticed that this blog has just under 2k hits so that makes me happy and encourages me to write on here a bit more often, wow!!
