I have been feeling slightly stuck of late, where no matter what I do I feel stuck or in limbo. I have been really busy however which has helped me not get down about being in this place at the moment. I have been busy helping the one I care for clean out loads of his belongings as if he moves he wont have the space. We also have 2 tribunals coming up as his benefits centre don’t seem to have the brains to resolve that matters that have been going. It’s been a case of writing letters, submitting evidence and so on and the thing is he genuinely has health problems! I have been thinking about moving but there are also that are stopping me from doing that too so it’s a case of staying put. I mean I love my place but it’s not quite big enough now, especially with two kittens and would be nice to have a garden for them also. I want to go back to work but it’s not that simple; even though I was good at my last job it made me miserable at the same time and contributed to my past difficulties. I have been wanting to exercise but I managed to hurt my other shoulder last week so been waiting for it to get better. The fact that I’m a carer even holds me back, he’s needs a lot of help and attention and it’s an ongoing thing. The thing is I signed up for this so I can’t just walk away that easily, it’s a bit long and hard to explain, lol….
So what does the future hold for me, who knows at the moment, I am living day by day at the moment although I don’t feel that bad. I mean a couple of weeks ago I was quite stressed which in turn was making me feel down but I don’t feel that bad now. I have a busy week ahead of me which helps and I am back at my place which is also nice.
I love cooking and I cooked a lovely healthy meal this evening, salmon, spinach, broccoli, asparagus with a creamy cheesy sauce, was yummy, life can’t be that bad. The page is growing bigger by the day, 250 members, happy days!
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